Evolution

We’re all mean to be a part of the evolution.

The time move, we move with him.

No choice. Nature never let a place to choice.

So we follow the line of our way, until the end…

And end is never in a hurry !

 

After my ‘evolution’, I spend a lot of time lying in my bed, thinking about our horrible I became.

You know there is a difference between being bad and being cruel. I never thougth that I could be cruel, just desperate but from this time, I was up to be cruel. Because everytime that I would accept a contract, that I would touch somebody, I would become cruel.

I always felt a pain so intense from the moment I started to kil land this dolor, this suffer, I didn’t want somebody else to fell it.

Maine came and said : « You know, it just temporary. You’ll not be like that all you life.

• Yeah I know ! I answered. One day, I’ll be dead too ! » And I leaft the room.

He couldn’t understand, nobody could !

So I stud up, looked the mirror and accetped it. I accepted the fact that I was a victim, witness of the decadent modern world. It wasn’t my fault after all !

Maybe God just tought that I’ll be better like that, better be worst !

I sat on my knees to fake praying and I smile : « Give me the strong to do what I have to do. Give me the strong to be what I have to be. Ainsi soit-il. Amen ».

 

Don’t say a pray for me know, save it for the morning after…

 

I joined Maine in the living room, looked at him and I said : « Who’s next ? ».

Cruelty, insanity, humanity, it doesn’t matter anymore. It never matter ! I was lost from the beginin’ and my evolution was just a mutation of salvation for me.